I'm pleased with my blog title...
I LOVE our pastor. He is someone you just enjoy listening to, he has a great voice...and you can tell he is passionate about Christ so he's just very...engaging I guess you could say. I genuinely look forward to his sermons every week, he always speaks to me and this week was no different. In fact his sermon stuck with me so much I just have to share it with yall.
Pastor Chris has a great sense of humor and he always starts his sermons out with a video clip of some sort and usually some funny pictures on a slide show...just a way to get you hooked in the beginning, he's smart like that. This week he showed us pictures where people had seen the likeness of Jesus in the wood grain on their door, or in a cloud, the smoke from 9-11, etc...my favorite was the Methodist Pastor who saw Jesus in a cheeto...he called it Cheesus. I'm sorry, that's just funny.
Hi point was that we all get so wrapped up in our day to day that we forget to see God in our everyday lives...we don't see him in the simple blessings but instead we look for these huge parting of the seas signs, like Jesus in a Cheeto. It reminds me of that George Strait song, I Saw God Today, where the guy in the song / story (I like to think of him as George himself) sees God in a flower growing up from a crack in the cement, a couple newly pregnant and then in the birth of his daughter...it totally makes me cry, but the idea is right on with what Pastor Christ was saying. How many miracles do I over-look every day because I've just stopped noticing?
Today I saw God in my 37 week checkup...I'm still pregnant at 37 weeks! Thank you LORD!!!! Every day my baby spends growing inside me is a day she needs in there, and what a miracle that is! I've never had to experience the heartbreak of giving birth to a baby who wasn't "ready" yet, or go through the agony of infertility. It really is the MIRACLE of life, I mean my body is growing a baby inside of, it...and it knows just when the right time will be for her to be born, come on...it doesn't get much greater than that!
Last night as I was falling asleep I thought back on this weekend and all the ways I "saw" God...the list is just endless. It's more than I can wrap my head around. I feel so undeserving sometimes; I've spent the last 10-11 years making one bad decision after another and here I sit with blessings all around me that I just flat out do not deserve. I have been given so many second chances and I never saw them for what they were. All along there was a forgiving and patient God who was waiting for me to see in myself what he's seen in me forever. It was a long and painful road but I feel so unbelievably thankful that I'm at a place to see that now. It'll probably always be a struggle for me to feel like I'm worthy enough, but I know that if I take the time everyday to acknowledge his hand guiding me through my journey it'll make it a lot easier...just the thought that I'm not doing this alone make me feel more at peace.
I guess the thing that's stayed with my since Sunday morning is that God is all around us everyday, dropping little reminders that he has our back...we just need to open our eyes and see them for what they are.