Monday, May 19, 2008

And now she eats her words

I can't even begin to tell yall how many times I've said (both to myself, Kevin, and anyone else who would listen) that I would be THE BEST stay at home Mom. The house would be spotless, the meals would be healthy gourmet creative and organic, the kids would be fulfilled and I would be a hottie. I mean when you have all day to cook, clean and work out how could you not be the perfect trophy wife?

Well by the grace of Stryker it seems that stay-at-home-mom-edness is my reality...and now she eats her words. In the three and a half weeks that I've been off of work and home all day with Ryland I have successfully accomplished nothing. I still haven't sent out the rest of my thank you notes from my baby showers. There is clean laundry in the dryer to be folded. The floors are an abomination. There are little piles everywhere...oh and have I mentioned that my house is on the market and we really need someone to buy it? That is asking a lot of potential buyers...to look past all the clutter and dust to see the gem of a house that is lying underneath. At church on Sunday a sweet little girl asked me if I was pregnant, so I guess that means I'm not a hottie yet. Oh, and I've eaten every meal at my Mom's house.

So where is all this "time" I'm supposed to have? Where is all this "energy"? I decided that today is the day to kick it in gear! I'm taking baby steps in getting used to having all three of my seeds with me 24-7...Hunter's home with me now but CC will still go to day care this week. Bless her heart, she's the most fun kid ever but can you say high maintenance? So after we dropped C at school I dangled the carrot in front of Hunt's face, "Hey buddy, if you help Mommy clean the house this morning we'll get Happy Meals for lunch!" To which my future business mogul replied, "Sure Mom, but I'll also need some money because I'm only five and cleaning the house is a big deal."

It's been an hour and fifteen minutes since we got back home, we've done the dishes and I've wiped down the kitchen counters. That's it.

I have a lot to learn about schedules. I've decided that's my down fall. Ryland is asleep in her swing which is giving me a precious opportunity to do pretty much any of the million things that need to get done...so what do I do? I blog. Lord help me. Anywho, back to the schedule. If I could get Ry on some sort of sleeping / eating pattern then I THINK I could schedule cleaning / cooking / self improvement time around her...right? That's how it's done right? Hunt and CC kind of cancel each other out when they're both here. They spend the majority of their time harassing each other and the rest of the time is spent whining to me about what the other one is doing...plus I can thrown them in the back yard with a hose and a bucket and they're set for hours. Oh how I've taken big kids for granted.

In four minutes it'll be 10:00 and I'm peeling myself away from the world wide web in attempts to clean my house and lose 30 pounds. No problem right?????? And she wakes up...

7 comments:

Chris & AnnMarie said...

Staying at home is WAY harder than I expected too! Don't worry, it's not just you! I still have lots of Thank You's to write, lots of cleaning, and there's always laundry in the dryer! I'm sure you're doing awesome!

Sophia said...

do you want me to take care of that little girl at church?

Amanda said...

Sister, you have a three week old! No one functions normally with a three week old, let alone perfectly. Your body is still wrecked from childbirth, you're exhausted, and you have a little one who doesn't know her days from her nights. Plus, your man is in another state right now. You gotta give yourself some grace! Love you!

Amanda said...

PS - Jackson and I were playing at MM City Mall today and he had a huge diaper explosion. Poop was falling out of his shorts and it was all over both of us. It was awful! Remind you of our little date at Mickey D's?

Sabrina said...

Wow! E- you have a 3-week old...and TWO other children to take care of. It is completely acceptable that you are still getting used to staying at home. Seriously, I have a 7-month old and my house is still a disaster and I am not a hottie yet either...It all takes time my friend. The most important thing, the thing that makes staying home AWESOME, is that you get to snuggle sweet Ryland whenever you want AND it is a perfect excuse to say that you didn't get anything done today- "Sorry the house is trash and we have no food...I couldn't stop snuggling our beautiful child" :)

The Silva's said...

I will be right there with you in 18 weeeks!!!AHHHHHHH, I feel like I am already behind on everything from cleaning to organizing!!! Just enjoy these moments with that precious little one!!!

Keri said...

Don't be so hard on yourself!! June Cleaver is a TV character! She's not real and she doesn't exist!! I like what Sabrina said. Staying home is not about having a perfect house and dinner on the table and the best schedule. It's about not missing that first roll-over, first step, first word. It's about being there when they're sad, happy, mad, etc.

It is HARD but it's worth it. I have days when I beat myself up, too, so I understand where you're coming from.