A Sleeping Situation

My "baby"...(who is over two years old, but will be referred to as my baby until another child comes along, which will be never....so she'll always be my "baby")...does not sleep.

I vividly remember the day I was warned of this sleeping situation...she was 5 months old, we were staying at my Mom's house in Houston...Kevin had just packed up the moving van for the 2,000 mile migration to Montana...Ry was upstairs asleep in her crib & she started crying...so, OF COURSE I run upstairs to see what's wrong, pick her up, carry her back downstairs and hold her until she falls back asleep. That's when it happened, the curse, or the warning, or whatever you want to call it...

"You know, she's old enough to fall back asleep on her own...you'll regret this one day"

Fast forward almost two years, and that fateful day will always be rembered as "The one day Kevin was right"

I say "one day" out of humor, unfortunately the man is right far too often, (much to my frustration as I prefer to be the "person who is right more often")

But really, I think of that warning often....mostly at 11:00, 2:00, 3:30, 5:00....her normal waking times. She sleeps less often than a newborn...and I'm tired. I'm very very tired. All she wants is for me to put her back in bed. Sometimes this requires milk, but generally she just wants me to pick her up and carry her back to bed. Was he right, or was he right?

Oh, and I've tried every type of sleep training out there...but my girl is as stubborn as they come. She will literally stand outside our door and scream for two hours. At some point she wins....Daddy does have a job afterall.

She also rarely naps....just thought I should throw that in there.

So imagine my amazement when I realize it's 9:00 this morning...and she's still asleep. Now come to think of it, she didn't wake up last night either. Now the panic sets in! She went to bed last night at 7:30! It's been 13-1/2 hours! Is she ok? Is she still breathing????

I run into her room half fearing the worst...and she's just rubbing her little tired eyes...gives me a big smile, notices she still has dress up rings on both thumbs, "Mommy yook at me! Ry Ry preeeeety gurl"

Yes you are sweet baby, the prettiest girl this Mommy has ever seen.

(especially when you sleep 13-1/2 hours, but I'm just sayin)

Beuller???

Hello, is anyone there? Bueller? Bueller?

I kid.

I've had trouble sleeping for the last 3 days, so I randomly decided to check this blog I used to write. I've actually thought about starting over...or re-starting...or picking up where I left off?

I think it's pretty ironic that the last thing I posted was my resolution to "post more" and that was over a year ago....I love me.

I just have SO much to say, I've felt really compelled lately to share my story and my struggles, what I've learned...mostly the hard way....and how AMAZING it feels to come out on the good side.

I love that I changed the name of my blog from "and baby makes three" to "erin under construction"...it's so fitting, when are we not under construction?

Maybe I should learn how to properly organize my thoughts before I try blogging again. (that's comical to anyone who knows me, my real life conversations are equally random)

So maybe this is a "hello again" maybe it's a "fooled ya"....either way, getting on the internet as a result of lack of sleep is never a good idea :)